NTL BLOG...

Energy

2010-03-11T16:04:00.000-08:00

I wish I had the energy to write another book. I honestly don't know what I'd write about though. It's no longer a need for me to write about my heartache and sorrow, and I can also say I am not in place to write about joy and excitement...I just am. It's funny to think that I'm a published author. Don't people know most published authors, aren't they recognizable when they walk down the

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2010-03-05T16:08:00.001-08:00

I. am. happy

Quest for Perfect Love Songs...Part I

2010-03-01T21:07:00.000-08:00

Wild Horses - The Sundays ...best version ever To Linger - The Cranberries ...modern classic

Old Boyfriends...

2010-03-01T20:02:00.000-08:00

My ex sent me a message today, asking about "getting together again", and of course I'm considering it, since I've spent the last 6 months in agony since we've been apart. But I am really thinking about it, hard, maybe he means just get together to hang out or have a drink, or maybe he really means try again. He really hurt me, because I just didn't understand why we were separating. I've been

White Rabbit...

2010-02-24T20:54:00.001-08:00

I read the book “Go Ask Alice” in one night…it was, it is inexplicable. It’s something you have to read, and there is no way to actually be ready for it…

Okay, not what I thought...

2010-02-24T20:46:00.000-08:00

So I spent some time over at tumblr, and to be honest it wasn't what I thought it would be, I feel isolated over there, I have decided to return and stay at my original blog space, it's my home.

2010-02-14T20:53:00.000-08:00

“ Iris, in the movies, we have leading ladies and we have the best friend. You, I can tell, are a leading lady but for some reason, you’re behaving like the best friend.-Arthur "The Holiday"

2010-02-10T20:52:00.000-08:00

I would give up all that I have for one more day with you, there is nothing more I can write because it will all sound cliche’…I can only show you, it hurts so bad that you don’t have me in your heart anymore. Please,please. Everyday without you is the biggest struggle of my life, and it gets no easier…I wish you loved me again. please.

2010-02-09T20:50:00.000-08:00

Gone are the days of writing your phone number in the palm of his hand and letting serendipity take control.

2010-02-09T20:47:00.000-08:00

“ …but for your information, skinny bitch, ..black men an’ a whole lotta’ muthfuckin’ white men have had plenty fun adorin’ my ass. I don’t wear their teeth marks in my butt for nothin’…-Jungle Julia "Grind House"

I MOOOOOVED!!!

2010-02-06T14:21:00.000-08:00

Okay, so I did it! I'm gonna try Tumblr for a while and see how it goes. You can actually get my posts quicker (yeah, like there are soooo many of you out there that care what I have to say) because Tumblr will tweet them out for me. So here is the link to the NEW NTL BLOG SITE {same blog, just different location!} <3

Ok, I've decided...

2010-02-06T13:19:00.000-08:00

To go ahead and move over to Tumblr. I'm going to keep my book website the same, but just move the blog, I like the structure, and for the little bit I'm doing I think it would be easier to integrate to Tweets and stuff. I hope I can move everything over, we'll see. <3

Not Ready for Valentines Day...

2010-02-04T10:31:00.000-08:00

I miss my heart beat...he's out there, one day I hope he returns

Old Dingos, Cowboys and Smokey Bar...

2010-01-31T19:59:00.000-08:00

@import url(http://beemp3.com/player/embed.css); Eagles - One Of These Nights .mp3 Found at bee mp3 search engine This is the song that makes you dream of the perfect dance partner...the tall dark stranger that holds you close and can two step you across the bar

Thank You Christopher Cross...

2010-01-31T19:54:00.000-08:00

you gave us so much more than the Arthur theme song

It's not here...

2010-01-31T19:38:00.000-08:00

I want to roam. When I was a little girl, I never wanted to go home, and now that the one who made my heart feel at home has gone, I have no call to stay in one place anymore. I want to roam. Watch the sparkling show of stars greet the red mountains in a kiss goodnight, a gentle hum of an engine in my ear. I want to roam. Fur coats and hats, hiding glow sticks that bounce on blackness in

BEAUTIFUL BLOGGER AWARD

2010-01-31T19:31:00.000-08:00

First I want to say "Thank You" to Odetoawe for giving me such a wonderful award! Secondly, I will now answer the 7 things I love to do: 1. Write 2. Be with him laughing...I still dream of it 3. Go to the gym 4. Dance with wild abandon w/ my ipod 5. Watch TV and talk life w/ my friend Amal. 6. Listen to 3 year old Josselyn tell a story, or give a movie review...because of her spirited

A View from the Top...

2010-01-25T02:47:00.000-08:00

This is one of the best comedic, yet inspirational movies ever. "A View form the Top" staring Gwyneth Paltrow, Mike Myers, Christina Applegate and Candice Bergen...oh, yeah and Mark Ruffalo. It's 5:30 in the morning and I'm watching it and remembering how much I loved it the first time around, and feeling {just for now} a little less awful about being stuck in a small town and wanting to be

I Wish...

2010-01-20T18:43:00.000-08:00

- They would play good Brit-coms on public TV again like Murder Most Horrid and CHEF! - People would realize that there are actually 3 Wilson brothers, and Owen is NOT the cutest by far!!! Uggh! - My Mom hadn't written her name and the date she finished my Twilight books in my books, now, I can't sell'em. - I could just come home and not feel compelled to get on the computer, I remember days when

Two of my MOST Favorite movies...EVER

2010-01-20T18:07:00.000-08:00

Saturday Morning 2 hours before Work

2010-01-16T06:09:00.000-08:00

The Ramones I Wanna be Sedated I love this song, one of my friends in highschool (and I) used to listen to this song after every track practice on the way home, still pumped after running a billion miles! ___________ The Police Walking on the Moon An ex-boyfriend gave me their entire discography on tape...classic. No one makes good music anymore, and noone gives awesome gifts like that

Head to Pen...I make no sense

2010-01-15T20:42:00.000-08:00

A friend of mine asked me last night... "So, V., I loved your book, when are you comin' out with the second volume?" Shock and amazement 1.because the friend is a man (which really shouldn't be a shock because it seems mostly men that enjoy it...maybe they enjoy knowing a woman is in total anguish) and B. because it seems people are actually anxious to read what I have to say about my

Another 90's Moment...

2010-01-13T20:45:00.000-08:00

Stabbing Westward Shame Wither Blister Burn + Peel Awesome, cut...whomever said that rock, metal, grunge-whatever has no beat, is an idiot! _________ Chris Isaak Wicked Game Heart Shaped World Cheesy video. Heard the whole time on set Helena was bitchy and aloof, but I guess those are the perks of being a model. I love this song though.

Did she ever make a "List"...

2010-01-13T19:42:00.000-08:00

I really think Sigourney Weaver's beauty was/ is underestimated. All these years all people assimilate her face with is the phrase "Get away from her you BITCH!"...but honestly, the more I look at her in her movies from yester-year (I know...NO ONE, says that anymore), even up to the last movie I saw her in "Heart Breakers" I really think she should have been on somebodies list of most

Escape from Alcatraz...

2010-01-12T05:12:00.000-08:00

Why does Tiger look like he's getting his 1hour of fresh air on the yard in this photograph. Seriously, he could take over for Danny Trejo in playing ex-con extra's and actually let Trejo get the attention he deserves as a seasoned actor. This is the worst...I think VF could have come up with something better to show his raw persona. Sorry Tiger, I don't feel any better about what you did...

Often...

2010-01-11T07:07:00.000-08:00

I don't often wonder if I'll ever be happy again. I've lost all faith in the hopes that I will... The one thing I want more than air, seems futile to continue praying for. God never made guarantee's for happiness, if tomorrow isn't promised what makes anyone believe that true happiness is. I'm short of breath everyday without the one I love.

Missing 1991...

2010-01-10T19:23:00.000-08:00

My favorite parts have always been the "hello's" and when he says "Hey...Yay!"

It Must be Nice Being 3!

2010-01-08T16:20:00.000-08:00

I made this tutu by hand for the coolest little 3 year old I know... She's really cool, if I were to ever have children one day, I wouldn't mind one of them being just like her.

SShhh...

2010-01-07T09:48:00.000-08:00

For the longest time, I have had a secret crush on Jeremy Piven. I guess you wouldn't call it a secret anymore.

You Should Know Better...

2010-01-06T19:20:00.000-08:00

THE voice. Better than Beyonce' ever was or will be...seriously underrated Brandy. I had forgotten how happy this song use to make me. In college when my friends and I would ride around the city, I would make them play this song a million times...good times, I miss them, I miss being happy and care free. Thank you Brandy.

Deciding to Dress My Age...

2010-01-06T17:22:00.000-08:00

Jill Stuart Spring 2010 I have decided that once I make money...decent money, hopefully sometime soon, I will begin to dress "my age"...whatever that means! Soooo, that means a whooole bunch of Milly and a whooole bunch of Jill Stuart! Love Jill since her debut in "Clueless". I guess I just love the '90's-esque vibe of both of these designers, maybe that's what I mean by age apropo, being

Confirmation...

2009-12-28T21:23:00.000-08:00

There is someone for everyone. Ridiculously unconventional, but it made me cry, happy for them...a whole new meaning to "dance at your wedding". I love it.

Tumbled for Tumblr...

2009-12-21T19:59:00.001-08:00

I'm moving to Tumblr...I think I like it. I don't think I can transfer any of my work, but I'll try it...I"ll let you know when it's official.

What'll I do?...

2009-12-21T18:10:00.000-08:00

... What'll I do When you are far away And I am blue What'll I do? What'll I do? When I am wond'ring who Is kissing you What'll I do? What'll I do with just a photograph To tell my troubles to? When I'm alone With only dreams of you That won't come true What'll I do? -Irving Berlin

If Life were lived through Commercials...

2009-12-21T16:31:00.000-08:00

this would be my fantasy ending.

Fleeting Thoughts...

2009-12-21T10:22:00.000-08:00

1. Too many glasses on my night stand, should take them to the sink eventually. 2. Really affected by Brittany leaving so soon, keep hearing "Rollin' with the Homiieess" in my head. Miss her. 3. Thinking of making a mass exodus to Tumblr. 4. I could NEVER be friends with Carrie from "King of Queens" I don't like overbearing manipulative women, or people in general. 5. I'm worried about my moms

The 1 Perk of Working Retail...

2009-12-18T08:38:00.000-08:00

The one perk of working retail is the discount. At my seasonal job we get 30%...lastnight, for the first time in a loooong time I bought something just for me, which is a big deal since every red cent I earn belongs to God, Country and Collector. I was getting some supplies from the back, passed by the place where we keep overstock of sunglasses, and I happened upon these "Colorized" blue

Like the Scar of Age...

2009-12-17T16:28:00.000-08:00

This woman speaks to me, and speaks for me. Where ever she goes on tour, I want to go. Thank You SADE...

Life Lived in Pieces...

2009-12-17T11:28:00.000-08:00

I leaned over the counter today and realized I am living a life in pieces. Every 3 years or so I gain happines like a One Act show, 2 minutes of stage time swallows 15 minutes of personal fame... All to be dashed hard against occasions, sloping back downward to years of nothingness and despair in between. Drivers licenses of customers transport me to places of curiosity...Fayettville, NC, and

NOTHING BETTER THAN... #1

2009-12-16T10:41:00.000-08:00

Since I have been in a "CD" for a little while now, I thought I would take me councilors advice and try to get out of it. Starting with getting back into a routine of things I used to enjoy doing, such as going to the gym etc. So, I thought a step further and thought I would make a continuing list of things that are great or make me feel awesome, called the "Nothing Better Than..." list. To

The Lost Boys...

2009-12-15T19:00:00.001-08:00

So excited, I found "The Lost Boys" today at BestBuy for $4.99! so happy...

Where is Peace at last?

2009-12-11T20:58:00.000-08:00

Where, oh where is my peace at last? I continue to drift... shapeless, voiceless- through time, tripping clumsily over rocks like love, and the blood of my foot prints sinks deep behind me, traceless and finally faceless, easily un-remembered. Elusive is peace... elusive is my peace.

GOD BLESS AMERICA...

2009-12-08T19:51:00.000-08:00

Had an AMERICA tape in highschool, I played the **it out of it. I remember every word to every song, this was really nice to find. I love America.

Double Standards...

2009-12-08T19:14:00.000-08:00

Woman breaks up with man. Man say's "babe, I'm sorry, I want you back". Woman takes man back, not a second thought. Man breaks up with woman. Woman say's "babe, I'm sorry, I want you back". Man say's "I have to think about it" and leaves her for dead.

I.HATE.SHOPPING

2009-12-08T16:17:00.000-08:00

Went shopping today. The moniker "FOREVER 21" means just what it says. It's time for me to a find a new cheaper-than-cheap place to shop since I am not 21 by age, nor hip size...the latter of which I believe the numbers truly stand for. P.S. I really do love shopping...but only when the clothes fit.

Moon Music...

2009-12-06T19:04:00.000-08:00

I went to go see "New Moon" last night, finally. I love going to the movies alone, I don't have to speak to anyone, and no one feels the need to speak to me, it's like a release or something...but I digress. I'm watching the movie and pretty much everything is same as the book (a few things out of book here and there, but no biggy)...and there came the scene when Bella and Jacob are fixing

Who?...

2009-12-06T18:19:00.000-08:00

I've completely abandon my other blog because I'm more comfortable writing about who I am behind the guise of not being myself- but I'm still me.

Making Grandmothers...

2009-12-06T12:02:00.000-08:00

This past month my Mother has had the honor of babysitting the daughter of my brothers girlfriend, and today a family friend is visiting, unexpectedly, with her newborn granddaughter. My mother is fawning. I admit it was such a pleasure to be around little JJ earlier this month, she's 2 and full of energy and just fabulous, and this little baby here today is very petite and beautiful...and

2009-12-05T21:19:00.000-08:00

I love this song. Hole is one of my most significant bands of the 90's. No, this song is not complex...but it says everything I feel, but I wish no aching on anyone, not even the one I miss the most. I think it's more the yelling of the phrase "And someday you will ache like I ache" that expresses how I feel inside. But no, I don't want him to feel this kind of ache. I miss the 90's.

-Where I Want to Be-

2009-12-03T17:38:00.000-08:00

Best OLD-SKOOL Strip Tease Song...

2009-12-03T17:07:00.001-08:00

Can't wait for her next album...every 7 years is a ridiculously looong time, and I think it was longer than 7 this time.

So Many Things on My Mind...

2009-12-03T16:37:00.000-08:00

Today I went to go and "talk" to someone. This was not my idea, but things have been less than bleak for me lately, so it was determined by parties unmentioned that I would be going to "see" someone. Not my finest hour, but an hour nonetheless. I'm not sure how much insight I took away from the whole ordeal-they want me to come back again to talk, and I said "sure". I'm still unhappy.

Freakin' LuLu!!!!!!!!

2009-11-27T19:32:00.000-08:00

I worked a 12 hour shift today so I'm going to make this short, I'm so tired. I'm trying to get my book into the hands of some blog book reviewers, or reviewers in general. I really want to get my book to sell, but there is never a worse time for the old adage “you have to spend money to make money" to be true. LuLu.com, the place I self published, does not give you an allotment of books,

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!

2009-11-26T16:46:00.001-08:00

HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO EVERYONE, AND MAY THE LORD CONTINUE TO BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILIES....I'm off to bed now, I have to work early tomorrow morning.

2nd Book?

2009-11-25T19:46:00.000-08:00

I used to write about love and heartbreak and all that stuff in between, then I recently got my heart broken again, and I'm not sure if I want to write about it. It has really taken all of the writing out of me to be honest. I don't want to share this particular heartbreak with the world, which I guess means the ones that I had before were superficial is I was so capable to reaching back into

Welcome!

2009-11-25T19:01:00.000-08:00

Thank you for stopping by my new blog which follows me, V., new indie author through my journey with my new book. I will also be posting some of my thoughts on other subjects as well, I hope you enjoy your time with me, and please do take a look at my new website and purchase my book Notes, Thoughts & Love Letters: the journal of V.